Its part of who i am.WARNING

Thats it ive become addicted. Its like being addicted to drugs, Alcohol or fags. You cant help it once you have the urge you need to do it. I hate myself for it. Im sorry to the people that i hurt along the way. I wish i could change but i cant. The blade is my new bestfriend its there for me when im down it helps me take away the pain. Sickening i know. Sad i know. Why do i do it? I really dont know. What triggers it? I also dont know. Does it hurt? At the time no. Strangely enough i enjoy it -_- I HATE MYSELF for it. I wish i could stop just like that but i cant. Im not normal. I will NEVER be normal.