Depression is not something that will go away in a click of my fingers. I hate the fact i have it and id do anything i mean anything to get rid of it.
Im pushing away the people i love the most i dont mean to but im not mentally stable to love people!
I want to tell people how i feel but i cant. Its so hard to explain it all this is why im writing this so maybe people will understand why i am the way i am.
I do love the people who love me but i cant show it instead i lash out at the slightest thing.
Everyday im in a foul mood, everyday i think about harming myself and evreyday i think im better off out of peoples lifes but i know my children need me, Maybe when you read this you will think twice about telling me to go slit me wrists or take and OD. Maybe you will support me instead of hate me.
I just want to say im sorry if i have ever upset anyone.
This made me want to cry. I have experienced all these feelings, emotions so many times since september 2010 & although I am now on medication I still have days were I feel people dont understand. I know I have said some shit things to you, none of which I meant, & I know its no excuse but my despression has flared up a hell of alot since the "incidents" on facebook, but I just wanted to say I will always listen if you feel the need to talk.
ReplyDelete& also, that i'm unbelievably sorry for what I said. x
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